Book: I am That Very Being Fatima Zahra Qazi

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Baba Sain

 

My Baba was the only son of his father. Dada had raised his son with great affection and love. They had no shortage of money, which is why Baba Sain was somewhat inclined towards a life of leisure, but otherwise he was very sensible, wise, intelligent, resourceful, and courageous. He was so brave that people would tremble at the mention of his name. Along with that, he was also very compassionate. Any poor person, no matter who, if they came with a complaint, he would think, "I shouldn't even put slippers on my feet." He would only rest after getting them justice. This was very famous: "If Mukhi Gul Muhammad hears about this, our heads are gone!" Such was his authority that, to a large extent, the era of oppression diminished. Another quality of Baba Sain was that he kept companions with him who were ready to risk their lives for him. I had seen them. Alam Dars, Peero Rahmoon, Bhooro Manghwaar and Karo Bheel were such strong men that confronting an enemy was no big deal for them - meaning, strong men from every aspect. Camels, then, well-fed, sturdy, beautiful, were always standing in our Otaq [assembly place]. Other, herdsman would be  along with them. Food from our house was abundant for, not only them, but even if a guest arrived at midnight, just a call was needed. The Otaq, which we called Kurh, always had crowds of people; lively gatherings were always underway. Ten to twelve cows, buffaloes, loads of milk were constantly being churned. What splendour there was! What influence! Our herdsman was named Natho. During rainy days, Ama would make copper pitchers shine like gold and give them to me. Placing them one on top of the other on my head, I would go running. Natho would tell Baba, "Mukhi Sahib, the pitchers are coming, but there's no person underneath!" Hearing these words, I would get angry. Baba would laugh. Those were the days!

In my enthusiasm, I have strayed from the main point. My Baba had two wives. Ama Saphian, who was Baba's Bua's daughter. It was a childhood marriage, from whom he had two sons and one daughter. One son and one daughter passed away at a young age. Only our Ada Muhammad Ehsan remained, who later became famous as Mukhi. He also had two marriages. One was our Bhabhi Rajbai, whose marriage took place along with my Ama's, from whom there is one daughter, Adi Samani, who is still alive. May Allah Sain grant her long life with health. That account will be written later. The other wife was my Ama, whose name was Mai Wasandi. Baba Sain had requested Dada Sain, "I want to marry this Wasi," because my Ama, in her childhood, was so intelligent, clever, sensible, and multi-talented that people would envy her, and along with that, she was skilled too. She knew every task, was an expert in every task. She was bestowed with God-given abilities - praise is only befitting Allah Sain, who makes His servant so; that is the perfection of that Lord, otherwise, the servant is, after all, just a servant. Perfection belongs only to the Generous One. Anyway, Ama's marriage took place. Bab Sain, on the very first night, told Ama regarding his son Muhammad Ehsan and sister Sukhiyani, "Peel the flesh off my body and eat it, but never complain to me about Ehsan and Sukhiyani." My loyal mother also did her best according to her human capacity. She neither complained nor gave them an opportunity to complain. She was so brave that she never retreated from any frightening situation. So strong that often during rainy days, our houses being mud-built, snakes and creatures would appear. If someone cried out "Snake!", Ama herself would kill it even before Baba. Ada Ehsan was timid. He would sit with his feet tucked up, saying, "Wasu, run, come!" We, the children would laugh at it.

Sometimes it would also happen that rains would become very heavy, night would fall, little calves, and the crackle of lightning! Baba himself was elderly and also heavy in body. He would shout to Ama, "Wasu, go!" and she would leave her food midway and run after the calves. She would bring back little calves, running, without any care. Baba would then praise her greatly. "Wow, wow! Sain, wives should be like this!" But Ada Ehsan, sitting there, would say, "You're spoiling her." That was his nature. Baba,Mukhi Gul Muhammad, also had his own dignity. He knew how to get work done by people, knew how to give affection, and knew how to receive it too. There are many such incidents involving my Ama, which, Insha'Allah, I will keep writing from time to time. Another very important incident was this: Baba used to go and sit daily in the evening, sometimes at Haji Umer Partani's shop, sometimes at Haji Muhammad Siddique's, who was also called Bullu Siddiqani. This quality of Baba was also counted among his great virtues by people, that whether it was a weaver, a cobbler, whoever it might be, if someone needy came, he would help them without delay, or if they had any trouble, he would try his best to resolve that complaint whatever effort was needed. One day, he was sitting at Haji Muhammad Siddique's shop when Haji Sahibdino, a respected elder of our town, a pious man devoted to prayers and remembrance of God, a righteous servant of Allah Sain, came there. Sitting there, he said to Father Sain, "Mukhi Gul Muhammad, Allah Pak has blessed you immensely. You also do good deeds, take care of the poor and needy; Allah Sain has given you all these qualities. Friend, let me say one thing, don't take it to heart, rather, if possible, act upon it. If just now, someone calls you for help, you would go with him for his work, but have you ever reflected on these five calls of Allah Sain that occur daily? Mian [Sir], one day we have to appear there too." It seems Baba's fortune awakened that day. He said, "Haji Sahib, say no more. Insha'Allah, Rab Pak will grant me ability; I, Insha'Allah, will offer Namaz [prayer]." Before that, perhaps he used to pray just occasionally, or may be not at all! I don't know. Upon his arrival home, it was time for Maghrib. He asked Ama, "Put water for me; let me bathe." After bathing and getting ready, he told Ama, "Spread the prayer mat in the room; I will pray." Ama was obedient to Baba Sain's command and also very happy, thinking, how did this blessing occur? When he finished praying, Ama asked, upon which he recounted the whole story. The family members were also surprised, thinking, this Gul has come in a different form!

"whenever it rains, that is the season for rains”

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

Eventually, on the second or third day, he went to the mosque for the Friday prayer. People were surprised to see Baba, thinking, "Gul Muhammad, and the mosque!" But the blessing of Rab Sain, who hasn't seen it? They offered many congratulations. After that, Father Sain tried not to lose any prayer time and also began reciting the Quran Sharif. He would go to the Otaq as per routine, but the addition was that he would also recite the Quran Sharif alongside. That too, with Tafseer [exegesis/commentary], and the points in the Tafseer that he liked very much, he would note them down in his diary. That diary is still present with Rehmat, my daughter, in Baba Sain's handwriting. That was a very great and virtuous deed of his life. May it gain acceptance in the court of Rab-ul-Alameen [Lord of the Worlds] and benefit him there, Insha'Allah. This boat of human life sails only by the grace of Sain, the Merciful Master; otherwise, what power does the servant have?

There are still many stories about my Baba and, along with him, my mother. As much as possible, I will try my best, Insha'Allah. May the Master Sain grant me His grace and the ability to write correctly, Insha'Allah.

Baba's mind was also such that he wouldn't forget even a trivial matter. Baba Sain had almost memorized Shah's Risalo [The Message of Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai]. Wherever and from whatever point he was asked, he would narrate it right from the beginning. He was a traveler on Shah Sain's path; he would go to the Melo [fair/festival] every year without fail and participate eagerly in the gatherings of the faqirs [ascetic/dervish]. His voice was also good. Then, my mother was also fond of singing and was a nightingale; he would make her sing his favorite songs, which she would sing with great enthusiasm, emboldened by Baba, and he would listen intently. Baba Sain liked Sassui [heroine of the folk tale Sassui Punhoon] very much; he often made her sing about her. Once, what happened was that Dr. Nabi Bakhsh Baloch Sahib, who is still alive, found a line in Shah Sahib's verse incomplete. He asked Ada Qazi Ahmed Sahib, "Who will explain its meaning to me and who will complete this verse for me?" Ada said, "My Mamu [maternal uncle] Mukhi Gul Muhammad can tell this, but he is in Diplo town." He said, "Take me there; I would like to have a sight of him." So both came to Baba Sain. Baba greeted them well and also completed that line - the meaning was also found. Secondly, Baba liked Rano and Moomal [characters from a Sindhi folk tale], and Sami's salook [Sufi sayings] too.

Along with that, he handled his worldly affairs very well. Such a person has many friends, but also many enemies. Often, disputes over fields would keep occurring. Often, the police and the subedar [police officer] were in his pocket (available to him). Sometimes they would antagonize him too! Once, what happened was that someone informed the subedar that there was amal [opium] in the Mukhi's house (amal was perhaps banned at that time). What they did was throw a small box of amal into our house. The subedar at that time was perhaps annoyed about something, so he also got an opportunity. He said, "We will search the Mukhi's house." Baba's spies were also strong at that time. This news reached Baba Sain. He told Ama, "Wasi, act cleverly, search the entire house thoroughly. If you find anything anywhere, take it, jump over this wall, and run away, but don't delay at all. They are about to arrive." Ama, Sain, was no less capable! She searched the entire house. In the grandparents' house, in my Nani's room, she found that small sachet. Taking it, she vanished like the wind. Meanwhile, they also arrived at the door. The man who had done this deed was also with them. Baba, with great courage, told the subedar, "Are you the one to search me? Come, come and search, and I will also see you." Our house and the grandparents' house were like one, as there was no wall in between. They were heading straight for the grandparents' house when Baba shouted, "That is my uncle's house; this is my house. It is illegal for you to raid someone's house without reason." Then they made a cursory search and left. They found nothing at all. On the way, they said, "Sain, we have clashed with a strong man." But where would Baba Sain let them go? Straight away, the next day, he went to Mirpurkhas and filed a case against the subedar. The case was very strong. He was transferred immediately. The threat of losing his job loomed. He came and fell at Baba's feet, begged for forgiveness, but how would he let him off? In the British government, there was justice. Eventually, he lost his job too and sat at home. That was Mukhi Gul Muhammad! He praised Ama, saying, "If you hadn't shown this cleverness, my honour would have been lost."

In our entire Qazi neighbourhood, too, when both used to go to Bua Sukhiyani’s place, the whole neighbourhood would gather, saying, "Ada Gul and Adi Wasandi have come." There, in the lively gathering and laughter, who could match Ama? Just what can I say? Baba and Ama were blessings bestowed by nature, the more value given to them, the less it was, but what to do, time slipped out of hand, just spent in pampering. Now what will happen? I can give them prayers that peace and blessings of Allah be upon them, Insha'Allah, Ameen.

Yet another incident. Stories of fields, friendship, enmity, companionship! One of our fields, I have forgotten its location , if remembered, I will write it, was very fertile; it yielded large measure of grain. In its front, which we used to call serho [boundary strip]. Others' fields were also there; they were of the Hala caste. They claimed that serho was theirs. Our Baba had cultivated it because that was our front line. What they did was make a secret plan that before the Mukhi's people come to collect the grain, we will take it away. What will the Mukhi do then? They were also powerful, meaning, veterans of battle too. Our Baba's espionage was also not weak; he got the news. Baba already had those four companions with him; the haris [farmers] were also bound by his command. They too had prepared. Taking one or two men with them, carrying sticks and axes, they arrived at the field. Baba Sain also arrived. He shouted, "If you are men, come forward; but if you touch the field, remember, my name is Mukhi Gul Muhammad! I will make you run like anything." They engaged in a little scuffle, but finally, they gave up asking, "Sain [Sir], forgive us, we made a mistake." Baba ordered his men, "Collect the grain and put it in." Just the order was needed; heaps of sheaves piled up. He stationed four strong men, saying, "Until the grain is threshed and ready, don't move from here." He filed a case against them, got three or four men jailed, obtained apologies, and only then did he let them go. They never moved in that direction again.

The story about the fields shown above, let me start it again, as there is a point of purpose in it - all the stories, you offspring have heard many, but let me write them down again. After Dada's death, for quite some time, everything went on quietly. All family members proceeded; the fields were also in our possession. But the two fields that were in Bua Bhagul's name, Dada had also written the deeds [land record/deed] for those in her name. Mama Umer was afraid of Dada; secondly, he would also yield due to his sister (Ama). But Baba would keep them in his possession. What happened was that Baba had a dispute with Muhammad Usman Diplai over something. He incited my Mama, "Gul is appropriating the grain from your fields; why don't you have it yourselves?" They said, "Brother Gul is a powerful man. He won't even let us come near." Ama also forbade her brothers, "Don't confront Gul." Finally, urged on by Diplai, Bua Bhagul also became adamant, "My father gave these fields to me. What will Ada Gul do?" They got their haris and ploughed the field, and Baba's people's eyes opened. They cautioned them, "You have done a difficult thing," but they didn't relent. Estrangement occurred. Baba held back Ama in our house not allowing her to even see her brothers. Still, nothing happened. Baba finally went and appealed. Then the matter came to a head, and Diplai got his chance. He used to live in Mirpurkhas itself. He took the land papers from Bua Bhagul and came. Go on, Sain, the matter slipped out of hand. Police and court - may good come of it. Baba had won other cases all his life, so he thought it was nothing, but right remained right! Their old claim from Nana's side remained; that resurfaced. Hearings upon hearings began! On top of that, three years of continuous drought! Everything became entangled. Diplai also got a chance to harass Baba. So, articles in newspapers, various kinds of propaganda - he really gave him no peace. Moreover, at Ehsan's behest, pressure was put on Baba regarding Ama, "Look, Wasu's brothers are doing this." There, Mama Umer got a job with Atta Muhammad Pali in Mirpurkhas. Mama Ahmed's tailoring shop was also flourishing. Both prospered well, and our house came crashing down. Nothing came from the fields. Ama's jewelry also went into pawn. Then Chacha Maulvi said, "Tell this woman Wasandi to broker peace, so that life may be spared, otherwise, who knows where this affair will leave you." There, Baba also retreated a bit. There was a wall between the two courtyards. My uncles were longing even to see their sister's face. They would bring fruit and call us, but we couldn't go. Finally, one day, Mama Umer brought fruit from Mirpurkhas to Nani Kariman’s house. Nani Kariman was Ama’s maternal aunt and her daughter, Masi Asudi (this was Muhammad Mian's mother). They both got along very well with my uncles.  They said, "Masi, make some excuse and call our sister Wasi and the girls (me) too. This fruit is stuck in our throats." Nani made some excuse and called Ama. I remember that well; I was always with Ama. Brothers Umer and Ahmed cried and fell at Ama's feet, saying, "Adi, you have ruined our happiness." Ama said, "Brothers, you have hung my husband high and dry. I will not eat this fruit! I won't do that." She quoted this verse of Marui:

"Umer, how can I sleep in comforters? My husband dwells in the dew,
Laugh not at the rug, Umer, do not act thus."

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

"Umer, how can blemished women wear white clothes,
Whose husbands in the deserts endure taunts?
Those disloyal to their consorts, how can they be deemed chaste, O Soomra?"

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

"Brother, when calamity lifts from Gul, then I will eat these fruits - then sweep away the dust from the deceased's shroud, so I may return to Malir."


 

 

Pegs of love, innumerable, driven in heart!

 

Now let's come to the love for the sister, whose name was Sukhbai, but Baba used to call her Sukhiyani. Mother had passed away; the sister was little. He had raised her with much affection and love. She was the brother’s darling. She would command, and Baba considered giving his life a small matter! Dada also loved his daughter very much. Fortunes are made by Allah Sain, but work is done through human hands. According to his father's guidance, Dada Umer's (grand father of Qazi Ali Muhammad) youngest, most affectionate, and virtuous son, whose name was Maulvi Muhammad, he arranged his daughter's marriage with him. Chacha Maulvi had a government job. Anyway, he was a man of the highest calibre and virtues. So was our Bua Sahiba. Sensible, wise, intelligent, God-fearing, possessing the qualities of humility, modesty, and truthfulness – meaning, she was like a darvesh. Just as she was Mukhi Manjhi's daughter – sensible, wise, intelligent, God-fearing – she got a husband of the same calibre. That was great fortune that she found compatibility, Alhamdulillah.

The sister got married. The brother was always at the sister's command. The lineage continued, but it wasn't quite fruitful. Many children were born but passed away at a young age. Eventually, after much longing, Adi Bhanbai was born. She barely survived, but Bua fell ill due to the grief over those children. For her, medicine, remedies, hakeems [traditional physician], tabeebs [physician], asking wise men was also Gul Muhammad's job. Chacha had his own job and prayers. That darvesh-like nature! Finally, Ada Qazi Ahmed was born. He too remained ill. Asking pirs and faqirs for him was also our Baba's responsibility. Bua used to call Ada Qazi Ahmed "Allahdino" [God-given]. He couldn't even walk until he was four or five years old. Bua got a spiritual indication to take him to Bodlo Pir, and he would get well. Chacha Sahib used to shy away from such things. So she told Baba, "Ads Gul, this indication has been received." Baba said, "Your command. You pack the bags; I'll get the camel ready and present myself right away." Well, Sain, within five minutes, the camel, along with the camel rider was ready, and he himself went along. There, by the power of Rab Pak, just reaching was needed, Ada started walking, holding the camel's saddle strap. Thanks and congratulations. He was very happy. There, Chacha Sahib's faith in the prayers of pirs and faqirs was established. Then again, our Ama's presence! The promise Baba Sain had sought on the first night, "Do not complain about Sukhiyani and Ehsan at all; accept their command too as if upon your head and eyes." Bua Sahiba used to have some kind of pain, I don't know what type, like a lump rising in her chest, and my Ama, who was skilled in every art, had figured out the trick to reduce it; she would instantly reduce it. Bua would almost die from it. I remember that well, that whenever, at whatever time, even midnight, there was no fixed time for that pain to occur, Chacha Sahib would call from the door, "Mukhi Sahib, your sister is in pain." Well, he would get up, whether grinding grain or cooking food, meaning, whatever the engagement, at Baba's command, she would run. Baba would follow, ready anyway. In that love, in that affection, there was never any decrease. Although, it was true that my Bua appreciated my Ama. If Ada Ehsan acted highhandedly, she would not let him go scot-free. She would assert her point and get Ama justice. Then Baba also reached the final stage of life, but by then Bua was taken by Ada Qazi to Hyderabad with him. Baba felt her separation greatly and missed her dearly. Sometimes he would make Ama sing verses of Shah Sain. I remember those too: "The beloved will lift the door – desolate soul will be revived – he will bring my companions safely." Sometimes he would write this in letters. He would make me write those letters, as his eyesight had weakened and his hands also trembled.

"The fine needle stitched my soul with the Marus [people of Marui's tribe].
Sitting, I remember, O Soomra, the shrubs and grass.
My heart is there; here are dust and flesh.
Among the huts, is the life breath, the body is in the fort."

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

Bua and family went to Hyderabad in 1945. Baba Sain passed away in 1949. During that time, Bua and family used to visit. Finally, when the illness worsened greatly, he started sending messages, "Let my Sukhiyani show me her face." She, poor soul, was dependent on others. When things worked out well, Ama would also give reassurances, "Don't worry; Insha'Allah, she will soon come and meet you." I remember our Qazi Sahib went to Karachi to buy goods for his shop. Baba told him, "Tell my Sukhiyani that now your brother is about to depart; come and show your face." And he gave this verse of Shah Sain:

"Before the arrival of the beloved, O death, do not slay me.
Let me see my friend, then take my breath; do not threaten me from afar."

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

And so it happened. Bua and family arrived on the night of the 9th of Hajj, and on the morning of the 10th, the day of Eid-ul-Azha, at Fajr time, my beloved Baba departed. As if he was just waiting for that meeting! That came to pass. That is a long story. As the time of Bua’s arrival drew near, he told Ama, "Wasu, prepare good food; my Sukh is coming." When she arrives, tell me slowly, lest my heart stops, lest I don’t see Sukhiyani. Ama said, "Mian, keep a brave heart; Insha'Allah, you will meet and be happy, chat too; don't be disheartened." By Maghrib time, Bua and Chacha Maulvi Sahib arrived. Ama went to meet them immediately. Bua got that same pain. Ama already knew the remedy for it. Doing that, she came and told Baba, "Congratulations to you, your Sukh has arrived and is happy; Insha'Allah, she will come shortly after resting." Then he said:

"The raven came near, bringing good news, O dear one!
Heart's desires were fulfilled, the soul became happy,
Allah brought the beloved; my calls were answered."

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

Thus he kept longing for his sister. Bua came with great affection. Brother and sister met. I still remember that state today. Baba Sain felt immense joy. Writing this, tears still come to my eyes today, thinking, where did such true affection come from? Ama had prepared seero [a sweet semolina dish] and pulao. With great enthusiasm, sitting beside Baba, Bua and Chacha Maulvi Sahib ate. They ate and were very happy. Then she said, "Sister, I have kept many things stored up for you. Sit down when you are free; let me pour out my heart's secrets." But alas, barely had they sat down when Parto Moosani, my Ama Saphian's nephew, arrived. Baba didn't like his arrival but couldn't say anything to guest. After Isha, Qazi Sahib also came. Baba used to be very happy seeing him, saying, "Ilahi Mevo [Divine Fruit] has arrived" – that was a loving call for Qazi Sahib. But sadly, due to Parto's presence, Baba couldn't share any heartfelt words with Bua. Bua and family left by midnight. Early morning, he sent Ama, "Quickly bring Sukh, lest someone comes and again I cannot speak." Ama was bound by the order, but Bua had come after many days; at that time, the custom of visits by neighbours was also strong; Bua was a very sociable lady, so crowds of people! Finally, the poor woman took leave from everyone and came, but two or three people were sitting with Baba. Meaning, conversation couldn't happen. Baba, sick, got tired. He said:

"They remained in the heart – I couldn't share them with anyone,
The secrets of my heart, I couldn't share with anyone."

Time passed quickly. We didn't even know that this meeting was for such a short time. Night fell. I didn't go to Baba that night as it was Eid night, and I had to give clothes to people. I was sewing clothes for my children, Geena, Janu – all that work was piled up, so I couldn't go. Bua and family were sitting; general conversation took place. Qazi Sahib was also sitting with them. At two o'clock, Qazi Sahib came. I asked, "You are very late today." He said, "Today Seth Waddo [the Elder, referring to Baba] was in a very good mood and talked a lot. We also enjoyed it and stayed sitting. While I was leaving, Seth Sahib asked Mami Sahiba, “Ilahi Mevo hasn't greeted me. Call him so I can answer him." Ama called Qazi Sahib. He returned from the door and said, "Sain, I greeted you." Baba Sain said, "I didn't hear properly. Now you say Assalamu Alaikum to me, so I can say Wa Alaikum Assalam." That happened. Then he said, "May you always be happy and prosperous." We had no idea this was the last meeting. My Bua had two sons: one Qazi Ahmed Sahib, the other Qazi Abdur Rehman Sahib. The eldest was Adi Bhanbai; Adi Taj Bai, whom they called Tajan, who was Amina's mother, was married to Qazi Muhammad Usman. She was Ada Qazi Sahib's step-sister. In step-relation, Ada Qazi's former wife, Mai Saphian, was very gentle and humble, but Ada Qazi apparently didn't get along well with her. Everyone has their own destiny. That poor woman had one child, who passed away after three days. A year later, Ada Qazi married again. The Siddiqanis arranged that marriage with great enthusiasm. Ama had arranged that match. Bua, as well as Chacha Maulvi Sahib, tried hard to restrain that relation, but Ama had already convinced Ada Qazi. Masi Halima was Ama's friend, so she also supported Ama, and destiny, written by Allah Sain, also happened, so the match was made.


 

 

Love Incapacitated me

 

Now, Baba's love for Mukhi Muhammad Ehsan, mentioned earlier. He had instructed Ama, "Don't even mention Ehsan's hardships or discomforts to me." And my loyal mother, again, never complained to Baba Sain. He sometimes understood, but his love for Ehsan was boundless, like that for his sister. Though every parent loves their offspring, that is a glory of nature that He has placed that love and affection in parents' hearts for their children, but this case was different. As Ahmed Mallah Sahib says:

The sun does not offer brightness itself,
Mother and father do not offer their affection by themselves,
It is the kindness of the One Lord alone,
O servant, then leave duality,
In the heart, O believer, hold onto the rope of Oneness,
The world is a place to overlook [faults].

Some affections and loves are exemplary. Among those exemplary loves was one: Baba Sain's for Ada Ehsan. Baba arranged the marriage of his dear son alongside his own, to Nana Moledino's daughter Rajbai. Ama and Baba used to say she was a good, virtuous, and loyal girl and was very faithful. Baba used to call her ‘Ama Raj’, and in response, she would say, "Ji Mama!" She never just said "Ji" alone, but what to do, it's a matter of fate that she didn't get her chance with her husband. In the ninth month, sister Samani was born, and Ama gave birth to Hoorbai, upon whom Baba lovingly bestowed his own mother's name, and he blessed Samani, saying, "She will be my Samani [the one with good respect]." Ada Muhammad Ehsan, who was Baba's beloved son, took unfair advantage of that love. He wouldn't listen to anyone, so much so that he wouldn't even listen to Baba himself! Whatever he pleased! Moreover, expenses, income from fields and farming, or the money Baba earned from writing petitions, he would give all to Ada. Thus, he became more and more the master. Who could question him, lest he is provoked? No one had the courage. He made all the family members yearn for ordinary household articles. Not just Ama Saphian, but he would also tell Baba, "Aba, you have troubled me greatly." Eventually, Hoor and Samani turned ten. My Bhabhi, who was Samani's mother, gave birth to a stillborn son in the eighth month and passed away herself along with him - Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un [To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return]. The poor girl, Adi Samani, was left crying "Ama, Ama". Her mother's heart was also greatly attached to her. Then Nani and Dadi, Ama Saphian, and Ama raised Adi Samani.

Baba Sain's son became alone, so Baba placed his own cot next to his son's. After some time, he started efforts for his marriage, but success wasn't seen anywhere. Everyone said, "Brother Gul! You are respected in our eyes, but your son is stubborn; we are afraid." He used to feel very sad. Sometimes he would also feel despair, but he didn't lose heart. Remembering Shah Sahib, he would say, "Trudge through heat and cold; it's not time to sit."

Sometimes he would console himself, "Don’t lose hope; the Affectionate is all Giver.” Finally, one day, Umer Partani, who was Baba's neighbour and also a close relative (Ama Saphian's paternal cousin's son), said, "Mian Gul Muhammad, here is Kaka Laiqdino; his daughter Walhbai is a good girl. They are poor, indeed, they have nothing. If you give your daughter in exchange to Ahmed, they will give you the match for Ehsan. I can get this done for you." Baba was tired by then; he agreed. In a day or two, consent was given. Baba was happy, but Dada said, "Gul, you will marry off Ehsan, but you haven't thought about Hoor at all. Hunger is crying out in their home!" He replied, "Aba, I have, as if, sacrificed Hoor for Ehsan." In that marriage, another incident occurred. Ada Ehsan's wedding was happening with great longing, so all the neighbours had clothes made. According to the customs of that time, customary bangles were worn by all women. Ivory bangles used to come from Umerkot. They came for the bride too, but Ada Ehsan didn't arrange them for Ama. My mother had prepared the entire bridal clothing with her own hands and was doing the wedding work with great enthusiasm. Until seven days before, according to the old custom, they used to perform bukki [a pre-wedding ritual], meaning the wedding started, and that night songs were also sung; it was the first wedding ritual.

Bua Rahiman, Baba's Bua Lalbai's daughter, who was married in Saro [a nearby village], was also invited. All daughters were invited; everyone came. Everyone came to our house and put up the hearths with great joy. It was a very happy atmosphere. Baba didn't even know that Ehsan hadn't arranged bangles for Wasu. Then Bua saw that everyone, turn by turn, put on bangles, but Ama didn't get any. She asked, "Brother Gul, this Wasu is walking around with bare wrists. Where are her bangles?" He said, "Sister, ask Ehsan; I don't know." Then Sain Muhammad Ehsan Sahib was asked. He said, "What bangles! Wasu's bangles are still perfectly fine." Bua got very angry. She said, "Brother Gul, this is such injustice! I am taking off these bangles given to me. With what face will we walk? What will people say?" Then, since ivory was in Umerkot, rubber bangles were brought from Haji Obhayo's shop in Diplo. My Ama wore those. Even then, the poor woman was happy, saying, "How can I be annoyed? Gul's only son is getting married. Gul will be upset. I am accustomed to sorrows? Sassui and sorrows went entwining themselves together." Then she said:

"Sorrows have fostered me, worries have reared me,
Comforts, says the Syed, I was not even balloted,
Perhaps I was a fragment of the vine of woes.”

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

My poor mother had indeed received sorrows in the cradle like Sassui. But "What can anyone do to her whose bond is with Punhoon Jam?" She was controlled by Baba Sain's indication; how could the world know? Muhammad Ehsan Sahib became the groom and came home. Ama and Ama Saphian, poor souls, were dependent on Ehsan while Baba was still alive. On top of that, Walhbai arrived, adding fuel to the fire. After a short time, the tune began: "Wasu feeds her relatives," and "Saphian is gluttonous; she eats away everything." The grain store was locked. Grain was given by measure. Helpless even for a morsel of food. Samani grew up, attending to Walhbai's children and serving her. Walhbai became the queen bee. These poor women worked and also endured reproaches! Money was given by Sain [Ehsan] only then would even comb and soap arrive. As time went on, Samani and Hoor grew up; they also got married. Dowry etc. was given according to means, and they reached their homes. Samani still ended up in a better place, but poor Hoor, again, faced the same poverty. Ignorant and unworthy people, and lack of appreciation. More sorrow for Ama! She carried on with a brave heart. Baba Sain lacked no praise for Ama. Ama, being skilled with her hands, passed her time with her embroidery etc. Hoor had one child miscarry, then another at three months miscarried. That sorrow too. In between, Mama Ahmed fell ill. He had TB. Finally, in January 1942, he passed away. Naheed was nine days old when he passed away. He said, "One has arrived, the other is leaving. You remain the same in numbers." Then Hoor Bai became pregnant again. One, hunger and hardship; second, the burden of children. Where could comfort be found? Praying to Allah, nine months were completed. In April 1943, Nasim was born to Samani, and twenty days later, Hoor gave birth to a son. I was in Mithi at that time for the final exam. In the meantime, the boy was born. Everyone was very happy. Baba, Ama, and Hoor felt as if breath had returned to a dead soul. But alas, that happiness was only for three days. I didn't even know that this happy occasion had arrived or if it was just a gust of wind to end soon. So, after taking the exam, I bought two clay toys shaped like parrots from the market, which I liked very much – one for niece Nasim and one, hopefully, for Hoor's child. I had no idea that the piece of the moon would make his mother pine and then take the mother along with him!

I have narrated that sad story earlier - the sad demise of our Hoor. Baba and Ama, both, all day and night, calling "Hoor, Hoor", reciting Shah Sain, sat comforting their sorrows. She was not to return, nor did she return. That time also passed. Hoor had been gone barely five months when suspicions arose in Baba. It was also possible Ada Ehsan might have incited him about it, Wallahu A'lam, true or false, may the Lord forgive supposition. Baba said, "I don't know how long I will live. Hoor's sorrow has killed me. Let it not happen that Wasu claims her rights in the property, causing trouble for Ehsan." So one day, quietly, on Friday, after praying the Jummah prayer in the Jamia Masjid, he made this announcement: "All those sitting in the mosque, listen! I have handed over all my property, including fields and house, to my son Ehsan. My wife and daughter have no connection with it." People were all astonished that a wise and intelligent man like Mukhi Gul was doing this, but what could anyone do? Chacha Maulvi Muhammad came home and told Bua, "Mukhi Gul Muhammad has committed a grave injustice today. He has deprived two rightful heirs of their rights. He has made this announcement." Bua was also deeply saddened. Ama didn't even know; the poor woman was devastated by Hoor's grief. She neither remembered property nor had awareness of the world. Her only lament was, "The sorrow for the camel riders is etched in my soul." Finally, Baba came to Bua in the evening as usual. Bua asked him, "Ada, what have you done today? The ground has slipped from under my feet. This poor, wretched Wasu, struck by sorrows, where will she go? That Ehsan, will he let you escape the Hereafter? The Day of Judgement is very difficult. Ask forgiveness from Allah and reconcile with your wife. What will the helpless woman do?" Your son, only God knows, will provide even for you.” And then, indeed, it happened that way. Some time later, Baba himself stopped going to the fields. Sain became the master. Scarcity ensued even for food! Baba, now repented his decision. So one day he called for Arbab Taj Muhammad, Ada Muhammad Haroon and Qazi Abdul Rahman – seating them, Baba reserved five of the fields for himself . He made a written document, took their signatures as witnesses, and entrusted Arbab, saying, "After my death, though in the official documents these fields will remain in the name of Ehsan, but the produce will go to Wasu. If Ehsan causes any trouble in this, help my wife." Arbab Taj Muhammad gave assurance with a very large heart, "Sain Mukhi Sahib, Ama is my sister, my mother. If she commands, Muhammad Ehsan won't even be able to pass through this land." That's it, whatever fortunes held, that's what was received. Arbab sahib made all the worldly arrangements he could.

These heart-wrenching things shouldn't be written, but it's also true that writing them instills the fear of God, which every person should possess because Shah Sahib has said:

These few moments you witness, O simple one, may not stray you,
Remember those nights that will come when you will be alone.

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

Every person learns this lesson from their experiences and should keep it. In July 1949, my Aziz Wadi [elder] was born. Poor Baba was waiting in the hope that my daughter would have a son, so he sat waiting with hope. Ama informed him, "Fatima has given birth to a daughter this time too." Tears came into poor Baba's eyes. He said, "Wasu, you have killed me. Now I won't live, but 'I will go and plead earnestly for the sake of the Kechis'." That very day, Baba fell ill with fever. Ada Ehsan made some taunt. At that, Baba said, "Ehsan, you may do as you please, but I too am praying earnestly to my God. That Lord is very great. My daughter will have a pair of sons. They will have long lives, be fortunate and obedient. They will make my daughter's name bright. Insha'Allah, Allah Sain, the great Benevolent wills it." He told Ama, Don't be grieved at all. Allah will make it happen, you will see, but alas, I will not see it." Baba's illness worsened, and when Aziz was three months old, Baba departed from us on October 10, 1949, during the month of Hajj, on the day of Eid, at Fajr time. Ama asked, "Mian, to whom are you entrusting me?" He raised his finger and looked towards Allah. "Death may not come before, but I may not live after; the sight of beloved comforts my going.” Then Ama said, "I will go crying out to Kech, bearing witness with woes as my companions – I will not live without the Jats."

Poor, my helpless mother, left to Ehsan's mercy, Baba departed. He asked for forgiveness profusely from Ama during his illness. "Wasu, forgive me." Finally, Ama said, "Mian, it is my fate. I have forgiven you. If I had even one son, perhaps you wouldn't have done this, but what can I do? That inheritance of a son was not granted to me, what fault is it of yours? 'Whom can I blame? Fate did this to me'."

If I were to write this story, the mountains might crumble. As Sassui says:

If I reveal even a particle of the reality of this state,
Silence would fall upon the wild beasts, mountains would crumble down,
Trees would burn away, vegetation wouldn't rise.

Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

Then the cries that split the sky that Ama uttered, I cannot write them here, for my heart breaks, my liver shatters into pieces. What can I write, what can I possibly write?

Sometimes, when Baba came strongly to her memory, she would utter lamentations. There is not an iota of exaggeration in this. These were Ama's words, which I remember even today:

I pleaded relentlessly,
My beloved did not return,
The bonds of the Baloch were tied in the cradle,
Messengers, I sent to Kech, seeking the beloved,
Enduring the sorrows of the beloved became my lot,
O sisters, Abdul Latif says, ‘Arianis’ will come.

- Shah Abdul Latif Bhittai

Time and again, she would lament. That Sassui had received sorrows in the cradle. It cannot be written down, the plea goes forth to be accepted. May Allah grant both my parents a place in the supreme gardens of Jannat-ul-Firdaus and forgive their shortcomings, faults, mistakes, sins, whatever occurred due to human frailties. Because humans are always errant; mistakes will always happen. May that Merciful Master, who is Ar-Raḥmān ur-Raḥīmeen, seeing our errors and yet forgive them. May He bestow His grace and kindness upon them, look upon them with forgiveness. May He keep them under His protection from the trials of the Day of Resurrection and make them worthy of the intercession of the Noble Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) and raise them smiling in the company of the believers. Insha'Allah, Ameen.

May this prayer be: may their place be in Paradise,
May their intercessor be the Leader of the Worlds himself,
May their salvation from the trials of Resurrection be granted,
Ameen, Summa Ameen.

May the Leader of the Messengers, the Mercy to the Worlds, the Leader of Nations, the Comfort of the Lovers intercede for them, so that they both rise with smiling faces. Ameen, Ameen, Summa Ameen, Insha'Allah. May the Able, the Generous, accept this humble plea through His grace. Ameen.

Relatives and Lineage

In our town of Diplo, the system of Panchāyat [village assembly] existed from the beginning. There were three main neighbouhoods: Mukhi Muhammad Ehsan's [great grandfather of my father] neighbourhood, Mukhi Waraya's neighbourhood whose Mukhi was Ahmed, and the neighbourhood of the Wāṇiyan [Hindu traders], whose Mukhis were Balo Mal and Tilokchand. If any poor person faced difficulty or trouble, or suffered harm from an oppressor, everyone would gather, make a decision, and provide redress for their valid complaint. But gradually, the honour of our Dada’s family increased because they were the foremost great landlords – there wasn’t a village area in the entire Diplo taluka where they didn’t own land. They also had considerable money, while the other Mukhis were weaker in these aspects. Due to this reason, the importance of our Dada Sain increased.

More people used to come and go to Dada Sain’s place; they would also receive loans and dealings from them because they were mostly their peasants and tenants. Due to this, not among the Hindu Mukhis, but within our own community, some envy also arose. To such an extent that when my great grandfather Misri had a son, the late Mukhi Ahmed sent all the women for congratulations but told them, "The Mukhi will give you dried coconut (a custom at the time of birth of a son). Take those in the first instance, but leave  all behind when you get up to leave. Let Mukhi Misri's coconuts go to waste; he won't be able to do anything." They did exactly that. After some time, a son was born in Mukhi Ahmed’s family. What did our great grandfather Misri do? He gathered the women of the neighbourhood and told them all, "The Mukhi, out of magnanimity, will give four pieces of dried coconut each. You collect these.” Finally, one woman, who was the cleverest and smartest among them all, he told her, "Give a signal to everyone, so that suddenly all of you pick up the coconuts and come away. Then they themselves will be embarrassed!" And he also said, "Why should we return the favour given?" After that, Mukhi Ahmed's family never committed such an act again. That too is a lesson of sorts. Our ancestors were so wise that they never let matters slip from thier hands. They would strike back, but without resorting to any unethical act, they would teach the opponent a lesson. There are many such examples of our great grandfather Misri.

Before great grandfather Sain passed away, he instructed his sons – one of whom was my Dada Muhammad Manjhi, and the other my Nana Jan Muhammad – "Aba, these Umeranis, who are now called Qazis, are very pious, righteous, and humble. Do not let them slip from your hands," meaning, maintain marriage ties with them through your sons and daughters. "They will never betray you." This is a great example, as eleven daughters from our household came into Qazi families. That was the jewel of his foresight and ability to judge character.

My Dada Mukhi Manjhi was an extremely intelligent, wise, pious, prayerful, and poor-cherishing person. God Almighty elevated him so much that his sustenance increased many levels above his father's. To such an extent that if there were poor households in our town, or if some rural people came to them, they would weigh out money [silver coins] on scales and give it to them.  Poor people would do a little trade in the rural areas to make a living for their children and would give him many blessings. The important thing was that they held nothing adverse against anyone. For this reason, the poor and needy would bring their complaints only to them. Their influence was such that people would obey their word. Once, there was an incident. In our town, there was a poor Hindu man, but he was mentally compromised, whom people commonly called "Ram Charyo" [Ram, the mad]. His actual name was also Ram. He would do some act or another for which people would beat him too. Dada would shield him, scold the people, appease him, feed him, give him drink, and send him off. Once, Ram Charyo took some girders belonging to the Wāṇiyan that were lying around and threw them into the Wāṇiyan's well, which we used to call the Balo’s Well – which still exists today. At this, the Wāṇiyan gave him a beating. He came limping, picked Dada up onto his shoulder, and ran off. My Dadi, who was sitting right opposite, cried out to Baba, "Aba Gul, Ram Charyo has carried off your father!" Baba said, "Ama, what are you saying?" He came running and saw that indeed, Baba wasn't there! Upon asking, she said, "He carried him off towards the Wāṇiyan's houses." Baba says, "What did I see that a crowd of people gathered." Upon asking, the matter became clear. Then, gathering four or five men, he had the girders pulled out and given to the Wāṇiyan, then they returned. Poor Ram received justice and started jumping with joy. He said: "Manjhi Mukhi nā marē, manā bachāyō. Manjhi Mukhi tūn nā marē" (May Mukhi Manjhi not die, who saved me. Mukhi Manjhi, may you not die).

Dada was so generous that he wouldn't eat breakfast in the morning until he had fed some poor person along with himself. He was pious and prayerful. After praying the Fajr namaz in the morning, I remember this too, there was a man of the Dars caste named Siddique, whom they called Siddu Dars; he would mostly feed him along with himself. I saw this too, that Dada would be very happy feeding him, whenever a petitioner ate and left satisfied. He also had great faith in the Panjtan Pak. Every Friday, sweet rice would be cooked in our house, and Dada Parto Dars or anyone else who came, he would seat them inside the house and feed them, and give to other poor people as well.

Drought and rains come and go in Thar, just as heat and cold, ups and downs occur in human life. These all play with humankind, but some things or memories are such that hearing or seeing them imparts great lessons. What happened was that a severe famine struck Hindustan. People began to die from hunger. People ate the leaves of trees. Finally, distressed, they came from Kutch Bhuj to our town Diplo because it was close to them. These people were Marwāṛā by caste. Hordes upon hordes arrived and settled in our wathāṇ [cattle ground]. When Dada learned that these people had arrived in hunger and misery, he immediately summoned his men, had large pots of rice cooked, and made a general announcement: "Baba, whoever comes, feed them until they are full." This continued for thirteen full days. People would eat, feed their children, move on to other regions, and go giving blessings. As they left, they gave this verse (according to the Vikrama Samvat era, it was the year of 'Chhapan' [fifty-six], which we call Chowanjāh): "O Chhapana famine year, may you never come into this world again! In Diplo, Manjhi Mukhi, the generous one, shines – he fills the stomachs of the hungry – O Chhapana famine year!"

The verse was quite long, but I remember these words that I used to hear from Ama and Baba. My Dada had two wives. Among them was my Baba's mother, whose name was Hoor Bai. From her, there was Baba Sain and my Bua Sukhbai, whom Baba affectionately called Sukhiyani. Dada's second wife, whose name was Veerbai, was the paternal aunt (Puphi) of Muhammad Usman Diplai, and her mother, whose name was Tajbai, was also a very clever woman; I saw her too. She was very sensible, wise, and discerning, but she wasn't happy in her marriage. Her husband wasn't from such a high-status family; he was also somewhat an uncouth type of man. But daughters' fates, who knows where they end up stuck? However, she was a very honourable woman. She passed her time with honour and departed with dignity.

Our Dadi was also quite sensible. They were poor people, but among them, she was good and sensible. My Ama used to relate that she would tell, "Ama, as long as a matter is in the stomach [kept secret], the person is above it, and the matter is below. But once the matter comes out, the person is below, and the matter is above." Meaning, don't share your inner thoughts even with someone very close to your heart. If absolutely necessary, then share only with someone from whom some way forward might emerge.

In Sindhi, they say, “Ningīan jōṛā ta piyass ghōṛā” [Meaning: Once spoken, it's gone swift as horses]. Meaning 'Once it leaves the tongue, the wind carries it away.' There's an old Sindhi verse: “Muṭh bhēṛiyā'ī bhalī – 'Upaṭī ta wā', Padhar wadī gālhiṛī–Ta chhaḍī wēndī sā'.” [A closed fist is good – opened, it's wind! Opened a large matter – leaves only a trace behind]. Dadi Veer Bai bore our Dada seven daughters, no son survived; three of the daughters passed away at a young age, and four grew up. Among them, the eldest was my Bua Kariman, Bua Asiyat, Bua Bhagil (who was the wife of my Mama Muhammad Umer) while Bua Kariman was given to Mama Ghulam Muhammad Janwani, who was his nephew. Bua Asiyat was given to Qazi sahib's brother, Ada Muhammad Haroon. My Mama Ahmed and Muhammad Umer were both given two daughters [in marriage from Dada's family]. The elder daughter, whom he called Panil - I was later called Panil after her name. And my Bua Sukhiyani, Baba Sain's beloved sister, was given to Uncle Maulvi Muhammad. He too, by the grace of God Almighty, possessed superior virtues. Pious, prayerful, extremely simple-hearted, full of humility and justice – meaning he had dervish-like qualities. As one might say, “Samey sunjāṇī bēṛō badhō bānhan mēñ,” [Samo recognized the right connection and secured it]. Just as Mukhi Manjhi's daughter was sensible, wise, discerning, and God-fearing, such was the husband she received. That was great fortune that, Alhamdulillah, she found compatibility.

My Dada and Nana had a dispute over property. How much parental property there was, I have no idea, but Dada Sain himself had increased it considerably. When the time came for the division of property, Nana said, "Give me the complete half." There were sixty fields in total. Dada Sain's wish was, "I'll keep ten fields due to my position as Mukhi; the rest we can divide half and half." Nana didn't agree to this. Finally, Pir Bhawan Shah of Badin (they also called him Bhawan Shan, Rider of the Ocean) – the matter went to him for a decision. Sain tried hard to persuade Nana and also prayed for him, "Accept your elder brother's word." The Panchāyat also gave the same decision, but Nana absolutely did not budge. Finally, frustrated, Pir Sain said, "Mukhi Manjhi, may all your fields be sweet and fruitful, and may seven generations have these, sweet and fruitful. Jani doesn't agree, so be it; otherwise, from my side, the matter is closed." Dada used to send some grain etc., but Nana would return it. Anyway, after some time, reconciliation occurred, based on the thought, "Brother, if I didn't partake, let it be, but let my daughters have." Thinking this, Dada and Nana became close again. Two daughters – one was my Ama's cousin and my Nana's niece, who was Nana Maulidino's daughter, her name was Rajbai – she was given to his grandson Ehsan, and my Ama was given to my Baba. Dada felt great sorrow that brother Jani wouldn't take the property. "There is accountability before Allah." Then, having reached the final stage of his life, what did he do? From his own fields, he separated two excellent fields in the name of each daughter. The rest he put in his son's name. Furthermore, he gave Bua Bhagil the entire share of jewellery and everything in the trousseau (whatever was in her mother's share). In the midst of this, he also performed Hajj. Nana passed away after that. Time kept moving at its own pace. Finally, old age and illness both arrived together; his age also reached eighty-five years. One day, Dada Sain gathered his grandson Ehsan, daughters-in-law, daughters, and all other near and dear relatives, seated them, and said: Aba, what was heard of Kechis by ears from afar, today angels were seen by eyes. He had a vision. Then he asked forgiveness from everyone. Everyone, with tears in their eyes, forgave him, except our Nani Taj Bai, who was Dada's sister married in exchange for his wife Veer Bai. She said, "Ada, I will not forgive you. You fetched a fairy but discarded me." The poor man heard this and drowned in silence. He said nothing at all. He just said, "Adi, Allah Sain will grant me forgiveness. Everyone has their own destiny." After a short while, reciting the kalmō, taking witness from everyone, he took leave and reached his Lord. I remember that time. I was eleven years old. Ultimately, a person departs, and depart they must. That day is predestined. Every prophet, saint, friend of God must taste that taste. ‘Kullu nafsin zā'iqatul maut’ [Every soul shall taste death]. But if one reaches it with the safety of faith and the kalmō, with righteous deeds making them His own, then that person is glorious. To write about them, these relatives of ours were so renowned that books could be filled, but lest readers say, "What is this?" Therefore, we will suffice here.

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